R11:pls dont go yet pt 2

i really miss you..
it was hard for me to finaly realized that you are nt here anymore

u never fail to make me smile
u never fail to brighten up my day
u never fail to cheer me UP!

i hope that u could feel that..
ive given my best
to care for you
to love you
to be with you

youre one of the loveliest thing that ever happnd in my life
you will always be a part of me no mttr wht..
and i will always rmbr you and ur lyf :)

TORA !awein cyggg ma ko..

R12:went SHOPPING!!!

this past few days..i was busy... SHOPPING...

LOL
and it was freakin FUN..cuz i was out with my MOM! and its only ME n her..
means...
she SPENT A LOT JUST FOR ME!
THANK YOU MAMA!!

my sistaS will sureeee N im SURE will b very jealous ngehehe..

+first it was my hair :) fixd it just like how i wanted it to :)
+2nd got myself a NEW handphone weeeeee..
SEw508 nt tht luxurious Or whtsoever,BUT DAYMN I LUV IT!!!
+3rd Bought 'Something NICE to wear' of course!and its freakin LOveLy :)
+next was the 'handBAG' nt that lady like type of bag,more to like a simple one :) BUT ITS
VERY dearly AND CUTEish :D

theres lot more,but nt mine :P ..my mom went and bought lots of her stuffs too..
mostly were 'FLOWERS' freakin flowers..and i was asked to water it 2mrw..grr..
yaa most of the stuffs that she bought were like 'HOUSE and GARDEN DECORATIONS'..

o well..as long as i got what i ive wanted..i dun mind hanging around :)
heee bt rlly shes the bEsT!

oh yaaa it was hell FUN!..
we spent our days with shoppin in the daytime,and Movies at night :)
well she dun rlly watch movie,but we did watchd a movie together last night
oH movies i meant were movies in the TV lol Star Movies that is :)
soo she only watchd 'Nim's island' and went to bed after tht..
ive watchd..
-Horton
-Wanted(Angelina JOLIE WAS daMN Hawt)
-Hot Chicks (LOL)
-Speed Racer(yeah RAIN :D)
-Fred Clause
-Nim's island
-Jingle em em...something..it was ARNOLD schewe...em somthing..LOL

hurm..others were like some malay reality shows that my MOM MUST watch..
so hey no disturbance~pplease...

lol
this wednesday,
im going to hv a reunion with FANn! gona confirm it tmrw..
hope everything will JUST be perfectly fine for us :D
And IKA will b HOME too weeeee :)
Lots to teach her and gossip'ies around ehehe..

the Next day i hv plans with my lil sis IKA :D! yaah
gona help her with SHOPPING! LOL..
theres a lot to buy she sed..
well i gess i would just Nibble around nyahahaha!...

friday is Xmas...wishing u guys a pleasant celebration

Saturday im leavin KK for SH ALAM!

and the real shopping starts? heeeeeeee

R11:pls dont go yet

Tora was the name given to HER..
shes Black+white in colour..
She have been living with us for quite a long time already.. 1 year to be aprxmate

Today,i found out that..
shes kinda weak..
she cant walk properly
she cant hold her neck well..its like shes having pain at tht part
..and i was making jokes bout her with my sis before..
guiltyness sTrikes...BADLY within me..atm

i feed her well
always clean her 'house'
play with her everynight..
she'll always able to make me smile,..

im praying HARD for her recovery..

shes asleep atm..
i hope she'll have a good rest..
and have a wonderful morning 2mrw..

R10: he CHEERd me UP

today was one of my WORST day

DAyMn..

it all started fine and calm..

i din get to hang out with my friends like how we hd planned...
so my mum took me out instead..

first we went to 'USIA' to manage -something-
then we went breakfast...
next we went to buy carpets :)

and next we went to the Saloon...
and it all started there..

im nt gona tell it anyway LOL
its kinda nothing to b worry about..but -something- just turned it into a HUGE kind of problem..which is kinda NOT!..

good thing its KINDA okey r8 now..
im just hoping that my mum wouldnt b REPEATIN tht -something- over n over again..

Oh well :)
i luv my new HAIRCUT.. im lookin EXTRA cute..LOL!

OH..about HIM(he cheered me up)
F.Y.I he is just a COOL FRIEND of mine..
i repeat..COOL FRIEND

so i was kinda 'moody' after tht -something- came up..
and the least that i could do was to pray
Thank god my prayers were ANSWERED sooner than i expected..

Thank you ALLAH

so yaa i needed someone to cheer me up :)
so HE came up..by Facebook LOL..
trying to start a conversation by the little chat window :)
at first i would like to just ignoreee him..but 'hey its been a while..'

so we chat..and ITS a tOtal Relief i could Smile and laugh!
he's the best and im missing him a lot!
Thank YOU :)

R9:Planning

hurm..im trying to organize my plans fer this december ending holiday :3

14.12.09-Celebrate bday c PALE :D-postpOned-
15.12.09-mo d celebrate d pntai bday c pale,tp nda mnjd-postpOned lg-
16.12.09-Outing with my long lost Friends-tp nmpknya,mcm x mnjd jg-
17.12.09-goin to the Saloon with Omma
18.12.09-FREE(open fer BUking) ahahah
19.12.09-FREE(FRANCY BALIK DR SRWK)
20.12.09-Mgemas rumah for the next day event :D
21.12.09-C opi finaly KAWIN
22.12.09-FREE(brehat-rehat)
23.12.09-FANn reunion+Ika Comeback dr Labuan
24.12.09-FREE
25.12.09-Busy packing
26.12.09- Sh alam miss me? :) + hello PAST
27.12.09- gOtong royong ruma baruu + buy yersef a broadband :D!
28.12.09-Jalan2 d kL pt.1 PLANNING :D
29.12.09-Jalan2 d kL pt.2 Sunway Lagoon
30.12.09-Jalan2 d kL pt.3 Genting theme park :D
31.12.09-Jalan2 d kL pt.4 Cosmo's world
+mlm2 kita smbut Newyer d ruma c ...KAmi la
mgkali klo member sruma blm balik wuwuwu
01.01.10-waaa newyearrr..mati idea pula tiba2..kmu2 lg plan..smpai la 3hb tue..

or should we just rest?:)

R7: Fresh aiR pt2

fuuuh i din go!
daYmn...and i was gettin all excitey last night...
but yaa it RAINED! so much fer the 'fresh air'

gaaaa

hope tht friend of mine 'cooled' down :)

ugh im hungry..

R8: Over it

lol..i supposely hv to admit that..
I WAS WEIRD!
and that is a WAS!
Now,Im back to my realization..
and totally feelin the awesomenesss of FORGETTING you

daYmn r8 :)

the dayS spent with you were freakin PRECIOUS but you made it turned out like it were fawkin' FUGLY..

i thot i cud wait..
i wud like to wait for as long as i cud live!
BUT Im just not ur perfect Princess anymore..
thats wht ure tryin to sey..
i should hv realized it long tym ago!
but u keep on giving false n FAkE hopes
which i treasured most of them very..very nicely..in my heart...

for real..i still remember ur words,
ur smiles,
ur Advice...
the way we talk and walk side by side..our starings activity..lol
those were very sweet..i thank you fer tht..

but i have to admit tht i hate u fer makin me fall in luv..
u noe tht it was coming by..
i acted very obvious to let u noe
but u dont rlly have any feelings towards me..
n yet u made me believe u were..

im feeling HOPELESS because of you..
Again im in pain

so im gona end it here :)

R7: Fresh aiR

arrr frens askd me out 2mrw..
to the BEACH!
man,its gonaa b freakin FUN
but...
will d rain come?
no? yes?
more to yes..since its kinda rainy these few days..woot..
so,..still feelin Exitey?? idk..
i get the feeling that my mom wont let me out!
i have CHORES to b done, daMn iT!
it was kinda in a short notice..so pls lemme go out?n hv fun :3?
i promise i'll do all the chores aftrwards...pity please?..LOL

more to it..
if i dnt go..my frens will be sulking up their days...
arrr friendssssssss...

well yaa one of my frens,she just broke her heart again..
so 2mrw outing was kinda like a Relief stress activity LOL

but i really think i cant go..
its like 2 in the morning now..
im still nt asleep..
and if i were to go 2mrw,i have to wake up early..freakin early dudee..
and its quite possible fer me to b awaken early obviously :)

idk really..its gonna be really fun fer sure..
but theres more reason fer me not to go..hmmm

R6:customization

UGhh..i hate cuztomizing PROFILES!
but i do luv seeing ppl bloggies getin nice and fun :(
okiey i sux in cuztomizing!said iT!
thats y im taking this 'so green' layout duh!

god O well its nt like the end of the world :)
its the contents that matters :D

but frm time to time..i'll change it :)
making it just the way like how i want it to :D

its not like im 'kinda new' to this bloggy stuff..not at all..
it just that ive been busy..and didnt get to fill it up lately..
oH my other two blogs are kinda 'STOPd' temporarily i hope..
so ignore it as much as u can :)

R5: RESULT pt2

thousandss of 'SIGH'

deep frustration..
dissapoinment ABOVE all..
Hopeless as I moved..
regretting thE Facts..

HOW COME IT WASNT A DREAM!
a nightmare
a bad EnD story..

whY wud it turned out to BE A REALITY!
suffering this pain!
An untold Story
tht should remain SECRET AS it Lives..

too bad it was wide spread! lol yaaa i treated my RESULT as a Part of my LIFE!
And IT SUX BADLY! my godddd...

ive done PRETTY WELL in revisions..
WOrKED my damN ass,The WHOLE NIGHT
Throughout the exams it was HARD but still i managed to cope with it..
COnfidently answered and just prayed fer the best to happen..

and YET! i still sux?..
first time repeating a paper is A TOTAL CHALLENGE MAN!

i was pretty sure 'THE WORLD WAS FALLIN APART' for me..
but i was carefully learning on the same time..

ive questioned my self thousands-MILLIONS times..
about how this FAILURE painess strikes..
OF course i CRIED..
it was like -its the end of my life-!
But questioning again and again..
got myself into a whole bunch of answerssss
CONFUSED as i went one after another...

I wasnt being EMO okiey...i repeat..NOT EMO!

well it just saddend me up..
i mean its like..
ive went HERE AND THERE to survive in "THAT" subject..

and that was a real PAIN!
and Thats pain...
ive learnt about pain...

feeling pain,hurt,sad is ESSENTIAL..
can u live without it?
NO! it strikes everyday,everytime,everyminute,so that U CAN LIVE!
IF u dont know wht pain is,How can u prevent it?cuz u noe nothing about it,so how can u live..

''would striking a knife exactly to my heart would cause pain''

ppl who answered yes, SURVIVE..
-Thats because they noe the PAIN a person would suffer by doing such insanity-

ppl who answered no,RIP!
-THAT because they dont KNOW ABOUT THE PAIN,so hell yaa let me wanna try it?-
(Seriously dont try it)

feeling this PAIN in failing 'THT' subject..
encourage myself to PREVENT IT happening again..
i dont wanna suffer no more..
so im taking precautions and steps to survive..

''u wont get the word SUCCESS,if you dont get the word SUCK first"
believe me IT SUX! so give me THE DAMN SUCCESS!

precisely and obviously
i have to work EXTRA HARD
Re-done wht ive done with EXTRA improvements..
Motivates with quotes and skilled learners..
JUMPING higher than before to reach
WHAT IS MEANT TO BE ABOVE

iam not a QUITTER and i seriously want to PLAY !

Not NERDY but thinking bout the future...
I MUST BE A NERDY...
in a COOL way that is :P

SO catch ME With hIGHly spirits NEXT sem
and do beware..
thank you :)

R5:RESULT

muahahaa..
bsk kuar result! aiii ntah pa2 la ni dlm fikiran...

mangkuk btl LAW aq hr tue..da la carrying mark aq RENDAH SIOT!
eco dgn maths teruk jg!tp at least carryin mark aq blh bantuu..
LAW ni baa spoiler nyaaa..

arap2 nda kena tendang kuar la..
bg chance la aq repeat,sgp aq merepeat dr kena buang..
bdoa ja aq ni..ni mlm aq smbhyg hajat *determine*

yg penting next sem,aq x akn benarkan jd bgini..
nda prnh aq takut gila tunggu result..
slalu aq steady..ni kli..
aiih tlampau byk men ba aq sblm exam tue..
bjalan ja stiap minggu
revision pa2 pun x wat
keja ruma pun biar melambak..

nsib ja la,grup work aq ma budak2 rajin..
aiih klo nda..naa x siap2 tue..

tp mmg first sem..aQ enjoy waaa..
msih bru kan..tu yg byk tkantoii tue..
msih in cultural shock..hihih
jd to try n adapt to changes..kmi enjoyyyy

tp next sem nda suda aq men2..
aq ada azam ttntu..
untuk d gapai..
tp at least bantu ar aq tuk result kli ni tuhan..

nda lg aq mo bgila2 ma cintan cintun nt..
nt keja bru aq fiki psl tu blk..
nxt sem fokus balik suda aq ma study..
jan d kacaw !

R4:pkara harian dlakukan

kemas bilik mama!!
p cuci piring2..
g bersih kulam iikan c ayah la kunu..
p lipat2 bju..
spu2 lantai drg c tora..
kemas bilik aq..
mandiii....
smbhyg :)
cuci bju..
cuci2 piring lg kli..
msk waktu smbhyg lu..
kemas2 dapur,buang smph ka,siap cuci ken..

siap keja suma..on9!!!..
on9 pula mo buat pa aa?..
mkin bosan pula aq rasa fb tue..
p bca2 buku kli d bilik..
tp kena make sure,bilik tu msti BERSIH!
bru ada mood membaca...huahuahua..
tgk la pa2 best..

R3:perubahan?? pt2

aq suda mula untuk brbh ni :)
biarpun blum start lg new year..
aq mo start juga awal2..preparation la kunun..
org ckp,klo mo brbh..
kena pelan2..mna blh rushin it out..
so aq pun amik kptsn tuk buat suma ni
step by step..
:D
mebi sblm ni,
plan aq x bjaya bcuz of the desire to change drasticly
tp skrg..aq steady...

aq mo brbh jd mcm na kli ni?
hihi..
aq mo jd..

alim..

waah!
bgs apa..
aq mo mngenali TUHAN aq pula..

slama ni,aq asyik duk fikir tntg pndgn org thdp aq..
skrg,aq nk duk fikir tntg pndgn TUHAN pula..

x kesah la,member mo ckp apa2 pun tntg aq..
pndgn drg x penting..
yg penting TUHAN mberkati aq..Hidup aq..

tp tue ar..aq pun bukan terer sgt bab2 agama..
klo ada salah silap tue,fhm2 la..
aq akn try shabis blh untuk ke arah yg btl..

doakan kejayaan aq dlm misi aq kli ni ek :D

R3:perubahan??

aq x taw ar...
bru2 ni..aq kerap fikir psl AKU la..
pa mo jadi sma aq ni...
aq mcm bingung gila..
bingung untuk mencari identiti sbnr aq..

dr kecik smpai skrg..
aq balik2 b'ubah perangai..
japp aq mo jd budak bek2..
japp aq mo jd budak lemah lembut..
japp aq mo jd samseng taie kucing pun ada...
yg aq sure..
suma x mgena nii ma aq..
aq pun x sure aq punya style ni actly mcm na..
aq tukar2 gaya,ramai pula org ckp aq..
hipokrit..
x tetap pendirian..

aii mcm na mo tetap,klo pendirian dri sendiri pun aq x sure sgt?

so sempena..new year ni..
satu style yg aq mo tetapkan..untuk diri aq..
aq akn try jd kan ia ssuatu yg tetap dlm idup aq..
kita tgk ar..menjadi atau x..
yg penting..aq try :)

R2:jgn la ba mara2..

huhu
sepala suka kena mara2 kan..xda org suka la weh..
slagi ko blh bsbr,sbr ja la ba..
org yg x pandai sbr ni,x kuat iman nya tu

klo ya pun mara tu ba,jan la wat muka,
bgs2 muka cantik,mo jg mono' x pasal2..
xda yg mo nt,ko jg susa..bukan aq.

xla,aq actually x suka org mara2 ni,blh bwa kpd pgaduhan..
x best la gaduh2,sblm ni peaceful ja,harmoni lg..
tiba2 ada peperangan,x best la weh hidup..

aq mo study pun kacaw jiwa btl,
tp btl la,klo kamu mara2,nt tmbh tension..
bgs rilek ja,n wat mcm besa ja..
klo org tu mo mara,biar la dy mara,dy jg tension last2..
suma pkara blh dislesaikan ba..
kamu kena kool n bdoa ja la..
supaya suma turned out to b normal again..

x bek la,diam2,x mo tegur,maw x maw senyum..
sedangkan dlu,satu kepala,gila2,ketawa2 smpai mo mati pun ada..
skrg,suma jd pndiam..mcm tension lar!
huhuhu

kita pun besar suda,bukan kecik2 lagi..
xyah lar gaduh2,mara2..suma matang suda,blh bfikir untuk mndptkan jalan yg tbaik..
aq syg ba kamu,kamu jan gadu2 lg k?

kamu rasa dua ekor ni,mo bgaduh ka?mo bdamai?
dari kamu ja tu huhuhu

R1:cinta la kunun

knp la mesti pasal cinta..huuuu
the best attraction of all mebi..

best ka jatuh cinta?

komen aq...
mmg best ahaha..
part yg x best,klo cinta ko tu x kena reply..
aii mcm dunia tbalik pun ada juga..
tp bgs la ba jg,sedar2 juga sepa diri ni kan..aii sediy.. tp

apala ba sgt tu kan? mcm ko x blh btukar kumbang?ohoho.. tp it takes time la kot..

seriously,aq ni minah jiwang.. wuhuu tp kjiwangan aq tu x expose sgt kali,aq pandai cover line ba.. klo sedi pun ma beshfren2 ja,x aq mo share ma org len.. kiranya aq kuat la kunun..hoho ntahla..

tp klo aq suda syg ma sorg tu kan,aq syggg la sgt2.. tp skali ja dy khianat aq, syg tu pun pandai bkurang, bukan terus break.. tp makin lama makin blh break pula.. so break la x lama..

apa la..

tp btl la, bg kumbang2 d luar kan,
klo kamu suka ma sorg tu,jan tunggu2,jan malu2!..
gtaw ja ba terus..penat bunga2 menunggu! itula cara gentleman..

klo dy x suka kamu,nasibla.. tp ya la ba,bunga pun bukan sekuntum.. mcmla x blh tackle ygg len..heih..

kekeke..sja ja aq ni,mo suggest opinion ma sepa2 pun.. ba tu ja la topik hr ni..low bat daa aih..

R or D

Which would you choose?

If its R, would you dare to blend in?
If its D, would it come true?

either R or D..

ada ku kesah?

ahahaha..

i'll talk mostly bout me lar here,the other blog of mine is someway delayed.
And i would be preferably talk in english+malay hoho

so any grammar errors pls do ignore,but if youre someway a teacher and an expertise in english language pls do persuade..

Cerita aq,cerita aq la.wat pa la cerita psl ko.
ko x suka,ko blh bla.
ko Suka,aq pun suka.